Boys are dumb. I hate them. All of them. Except my dad. Forever. I think I’ll buy a cat.
I was so hungry when I got home and Jye said he would come over and we could make stir fry but being Jye he’s late so I accidentally ate a bag of chips. Oops.
Oh man all I want is to cuddle up on the couch and eat stir fry veggies with heaps of tofu instead I gotta go to work and eat cold soggy chia seeds for lunch.
Last night I wore my friends shirt to bed and I dreamt he came and spooned me for the night.
I feel so bad because I get really overwhelmed and irritated when people are clingy but also when I want people to pay attention to me and they don’t I feel sad and rejected. It’s so hypercritical but ugh I can’t change.
At work tonight I was really bored and I was just standing around wishing time would waste away faster but then some of my beautiful friends who I went to high school with were eating next door and I just hung out with them for half an hour instead of being bored at work. It was really nice and then by the time I stopped bludging it was time to go home.
At work I sit in front of people with gross, greasy, unhealthy, meaty meals and I chomp really loudly on the carrot sticks I brought in a pink Tupperware container from home. Sucks to be them.
Sometimes I am worried I will never fall in love again.